serious self-doubt

so i've been dealing with a lot of irrational self-doubt lately over not having a summer job lined up, unlike most of my fabulous friends out here. now the thing is i haven't exactly applied for many jobs, partly because of laziness, but partly because of serious self-doubt over my abilities.

anyway, got a job interview tomorrow and another on wednesday. hopefully i can fake more confidence and knowledge than i feel.

in other life realms, my fabulous quotient is pretty high today, or at least it feels high. despite every muscle in my body hurting and being a little hungover from a fun girls night, i went on a decent-ish runnish thing, took a nice hot shower, ate a spinach salad, read a book, smoked 0 cigarettes, and am now listening to regina spektor and researching CIDA and international mechanisms for humanitarian response in case they ask any of those sneaky "did you do your homework" questions tomorrow. i know. i'm great.